Few voices from the past are haunting me these days. The things that were said and done can't be changed, and if I'm honest I thought of him only once because he came up in conversation. I added him to facebook because I was asked to pass something along, and hadn't had the chance to do so. I also hadn't even remembered I had added him. Probably never would have, If he didn't bring it to my attention with his insults.
I have said before that I am confident in the quality of my character, so we all know that I certainly don't believe his drama. I am just frustrated that he even feels it necessary to start the drama.
I was completely willing to take responsibility for every drop of drama that happened, but now I'm starting to wonder if perhaps I shouldn't have. I've been in a very good drama-free zone until now, and I didn't throw it at him. He started it.
Why?
It's kind of Like the kid who licks metal in the middle of winter. He knows his tongue will stick and it will be painful and embarassing, but he does it anyway. It doesn't get him anything, but nobody will forget him.
You can't forget a person if they're continually causing commotion in your life. Oldest trick in the book! I would know.
I have never claimed to be perfect and don't intend to. I have made too many mistakes to count. I have said mean things and hurt people I cared about. I think everyone has.
That being said, there is not a selfish bone in my body, at this point in my life. Infact, I would feel comfortable calling myself a very unselfish person.
Spitefulness is also not in my nature. If spite was my goal, it would come in a much more contrived fashion as opposed to a private comment saying the "spitee" was too nice.
So needless to say, someone put a big black cloud right over my sunshine and rainbow filled day. Lol.
Sorry for the vent, but it was annoying me a little.
I really want to go for a drive in the country tomorrow.
Hopefully it's sunnier and happier though.