So let me tell you how being buds with a manager has it's perks. I get an e-mail today "Don't worry dude, i've got it under control. I asked K to give you New Years off" And i'm sure it will be so.
Boys...boys will be the death of me. I don't like to call them men, unless they act like them. hahaha.
The one guy I went to the Christmas party with...nice guy. I would date him. The girls at work are mad that I say that, because he seems to only be after one thing...but I can handle myself. I won't give him anything I don't want to, and won't end up wanting a relationship with someone who isn't after that. So moving on to the next one...
He moves too fast for me. (crazy that a girl who once talked of marriage after a month would say that..i'm a changed woman!) Drops words that I don't use...tries to get me to talk about my feelings (I don't have any, i've only known him a couple weeks). And then I feel like an asshole for not having feelings.
It's crazy though, how tough i've ended up being. I built some really tall walls around myself, after the last time. Nothing can get through them. I like the guy...I do. I think he's cool and everything, but it frightens me how much he sounds like Keith. I even told him that.
"You sound just like someone I used to know."
"Used to know? So it's a bad thing?"
"Well....I used to know him because he ditched me. Strung me along then completely obliterated my entire life...broke me into a million little pieces, then stomped all over them, just to make sure I wouldn't be able to put myself back together the same way I was."
".....Oh"
"Yeah, anyway, he used to say the things you say to me...and I used to like them. Hell, I used to believe them...back in my younger days ;)"
*silence*
So boys and girls, there you have it. I've changed. I hear the words, but I don't believe them. I like the guy, but not enough to tell him. I have some high walls that will be quite hard to break down....if the person doesn't see right away how it's going to be. You have to charm me to win my heart and calling me "baby" just isn't enough anymore.
Words....are not enough this time.