I was actually motivated today! What the fuck is up with me? I suppose i decided it's time to get off my ass and stop being depressed. (It was short lived, though)
I woke up at a decent time and i went up to the strip mall at the end of the road. I bought a few things for myself with the money i now have. (yay!)
I dyed my hair today. It's light brown with golden highlights. It looks pretty. I like it. There's one part at the front that is super light, but it looks good anyways.
I went to the movies tonight. I saw Kill Bill. I actually really enjoyed it. It's kind of gory, but cool anyways.
I came home and finally was motivated to do the 2 weeks worth of dishes that had been piling up on the counter. I also got rid of the icky leftovers in the fridge. Wasn't a pretty sight. I did it anyways, though. I'm so tough. lol.
Tonight just took a shitty turn. I was having fun talking to a couple of my friends online and Keith came around and totally ruined everything. I fucking cannot stand this shit anymore. I won't be friends with him. I won't be anything with him. It kills me to have him around. I'm fucking finished. Right here and right now i vow never to associate with him again. I'm fucking finished. I don't have to put up with his shit. I'm too good for that. I'm too good to be left crying and feeling like crap every time he comes around. It's not fair to me. Clearly anyone who loves me wouldn't get such joy from knowing they're killing me. Fuck Keith. Fuck everything to do with him and me. I'm done.
Hopefully my mood will get better soon. I could use someone to talk to me and cheer me up a bit. I'll get over it, though. I'm promising myself now that i'll get over it.
I'm going to be strong. This is what i want in my life. I want to be strong. To be able to realize that i am independent and don't need the shithead. I don't need to be picked up and dropped whenever it's convenient. I'm too good for that.
*sigh*
How depressing am I, tonight?